What does God see when He looks at me? Is a question I ask myself often. It forces me to be accountable, and it keeps me grounded. I can put up a front for people, but playing hide and seek with God is to me like chasing shadows. It reminds me that I cannot afford to have multiple personalities because in the back of my head, I know that I have to answer to God.
Integrity is a kingdom principle, one that is a direct reflection of the state of your heart. It requires a measure of intentionality — effort on our part to not compromise our values for momentary gain. Life isn’t always black and white, and the not so surprising plot twist is that the grey areas always present as attractive alternatives. That is of course until we bite more than we can chew.
It is fair to say that we all want a free pass to an easy, comfortable life. One with no toils and as little turbulence as possible. No one prays for trials and tribulations, and no one desires heartache and pain. But they are all a part of life, and we navigate them the best we can.
I am at a point in my life where nothing matters more to me than what God thinks about me. I am also at the very end of self. Both have put me in a reflective and dependent space. Reflective because I have self imposed check points to ensure that I am always aligned with God — in thought and action. Dependent because my oh my, I need the Holy Spirit, to have dominion over my flesh.
Being reflective is not a walk in the park for me, but it is one that is needed to work out my own salvation, and fight the good fight of faith.
The unbeaten path of integrity, walking the straight yet dynamic line with God draws me nearer to Him, and consequently (develops) and unearths the best version of me. I do this for my sake, for my loved ones, and for all those that I will come in contact with at some point or another. But primarily for God, to be pleasing to Him.