“No matter what, I will continue to hope and passionately cling to Christ,
so that He may be openly revealed through me before everyone’s eyes.
So, I will not be ashamed!
In my life or in my death,
Christ will be magnified in me.
My true life is the Anointed One,
and dying means gaining more of Him.” |Phil 1:20, TPT|
I was leafing through my journal this morning, not looking for anything per say, but evidently searching for something. Inspiration? maybe. A timely word? possibly. I didn’t know exactly, at least not until I found it. I saw the words and knew that this supposedly random act was a divine nudge, and one that thankfully, I obeyed.
Over the last couple of days, much of my internal dialogue has been informed by fear. I gave in to the familiar feelings of inadequacy, and unworthiness. I ruminated on thoughts that were not good. Suddenly, everything seemed far less beautiful than seconds before, and I was the only 30 something year old in the entire world that did not have her life all the way together and figured out. Overgeneralization. The exact thing I advise my clients not to do. These thoughts were devoid of virtue, and very far from God’s truth. Yet here I was dancing with fire, melting into the arms of deceit. I was so inwardly focused that I forgot to look up.
This verse was life giving. It interrupted the intrusive thoughts and untangled me from the web of lies. It shifted my focus from my inabilities to the Father’s abilities. From my lack of qualifications to the One who qualifies. From my feelings of hopelessness to the face of hope. From the temporary to the eternal. It also reaffirmed my conviction. No matter what…Christ will be magnified in me. I have a purpose, and so do you. Maybe that’s what all this was about. An ardent reminder that the world needs whatever God has placed in you.
Pray with me…
Heavenly Father, thank you for reaffirming your truth concerning my life. I am so grateful that you are a Father who gives good gifts. You do not hold back when it comes to your children. I have a hope, I have a sound mind, and my life though not perfect, is entirely for your glory. Thank you for being my God, and for lifting despair off me. Thank you for your ever-present Spirit who so strategically and lovingly guides me into the sweet nectar of your life-giving word. Thank you for Jesus. The privilege to stand in His authority, and the power to take every bad and contrary thought captive. I live for you Lord. Be magnified in me. In Jesus name. Amen.